Tuesday, July 6, 2010

there is hope, isn't there?

Okay, so I'm sitting at my trailer, wondering what the heck I'm doing here...it's stinking hot...which is fine if you have air conditioning...which...I'm very glad and appreciative that we do as the temperature mounts up to the 90's!! So...what is the problem....everyone wants to be in the air conditioning..which is similar to when it rains when you're camping...everyone wants to be in the trailer.....6 large bodies in a small 29' trailer is not comfortable.....whereas, a scant 2-1/4 hour drive from here is my house...albeit, not a huge house...not even a large house but..significantly bigger than an 8 x 29' trailer!

We have our trailer at a bible conference grounds...there are bible study services every morning, there are activities for our teens every morning and evening ( a big selling point to be here ) , people are friendly...over the years we've made some friends and acquaintances that we see every year.....in fact, last night hubby and I visited with a couple that live about 20 minutes from us at home, but we never see...but we usually visit with once a year when they're here... go figure!

Eldest son is being interviewed tomorrow for a teaching position.....in Saskatchewan.....I'm of two minds on this....I really want him to get a teaching position, anywhere really to get his foot in the door of his teaching career that he's worked so very hard to attain for the last 14 years....but...Saskatchewan...really people...do you know how far that is from Ontario!!!

So, as we sit here, in our little tin box......I ponder these things...amongst others.....will #2 son ever get his life turned around, will #3 son rejoin the army or spend then rest of his life installing hot tubs (which is most excellent right now cause it pays the bills and puts gas in his truck...but will he be satisfied with that long term...I think not).....will #2 daughter get a job real soon....I sure hope so ...it really becomes difficult to pay the rent and other bills when very little money is coming in.....will #3 daughter get a job soon...yes, I know that she just graduated highschool...but the longer she sits around the harder it will be...we've tried to convince her that that part of her life is done but I don't think she's convinced yet...will #4 daughter still carry on about moving out when we get home or will the counselling work.....I could say more about each of my kids but they'd probably kill me......at least be slightly upset with me.....

I've heard people say that their parenting is done when the kids become adults....I don't agree...it's just different....the parenting we still do with the teens at home is way different to the parenting we do with the kids no longer at home...but it still is...parenting that is.....just different.....

so, that's my thots for today......speaking of parenting...I miss my dad...a lot.....wouldn't mind some parenting from him right now.....have to wait til I see him again......when he gives me that big hug and says 'Hi, Marie'...with that upward lilt to his voice that I can still hear.....lookin' forward to that day.....hope I see all my kids there too.....is that too much for a mom to hope for ..I don't know.....

2 comments:

joyceandnorm said...

We had a discussion on parents (not parenting) when I worked with the youth (back when I was a really a youth, but in college), and I was trying to explain to them that while it seems like parents who have say 4 kids should be an expert, they're really not. Not to put down any parents,... but it's only one time in your life when you have kids that are 2, 4, 6, 8. So you're an expert of having kids those age for one year really...example of my family...but then somehow they all grow the next year, and it's your first time ever being parents to 3, 5, 7, 9 year olds. And on it goes...when they are 13, 15, 17, 19 years old, it'll be the first time you have kids in middle school, high school, and college. So I totally get what you mean about parenting. And they're always your babies no matter how old they are.

Les said...

You know, I can still hear in my mind how grandpa used to say my name..."Heeyy, therrre, Les-lie!"