Monday, October 19, 2015


There are only a few Mondays left before our newest grandson is born....we've been told that the baby is doing well, growing well, good heartbeat.....

Two weeks ago, this baby's father died....he was in the local jail, on many charges...he'd been there since June...his court date was scheduled for October 30. He died of a drug overdose.....he was twenty years old.

Before you feel any kind of sympathy feelings toward him or to his unborn son, you should know that this wasn't his first time in was at least his fourth, that I'm aware of. He was a young man with a volatile, explosive temper....a temper that he took out on our daughter...many times ...and on our unborn grand daughter...last year...before she also died, as the result of a terrible fall her mother had.

I will admit to not feeling sad when I got the news two weeks ago, but when I attended his funeral with my daughter, a week later, I felt sadness....sadness for his father, who stood at his grave site..looking bereft.....I felt sadness that this young man, foolishly threw his life away before he really experienced true life.

Before you feel sorry for his unborn son, growing up without his father....don't.

Last year, he was a terrible father towards his unborn daughter...a wee tiny baby who was born covered in bruises....and they weren't all from the doubt, this young man had severe mental and emotional problems that caused him to have absolutely no respect for human life, caused him to render blow after blow to the pregnant belly of our daughter that resulted in bruises on his own daughter.

If you feel anything for little Malachi, for that is what she's chosen to call her son, feel concern for his life as he grows up with a mother that is far too immature to parent a baby, a mother that can barely look after herself, a mother who is quick to blame others for her sorry, messed up life. If you pray to God, then pray that Malachi will be safe, that he will be fed properly, that he will be sheltered , that he will be loved.

His grandfather and I will do the best we can......but with the responsibilities of three intellectually delayed adults still living in our home, the amount and the frequency of how and when we can help is questionable.

We pray for him, we pray that he will be safe.......

Little babies deserve so much much more.

Malachi's delivery date is set for four Mondays from today, on the sixteenth of November at 2:00pm.

May God have mercy on him.

~ Marie

Tuesday, October 13, 2015

Thanksgiving 2015

Another Thanksgiving has passed.....Don and I were grateful for many things....we were grateful that six out of our nine children were able to come to Thanksgiving dinner.......we were grateful that the weather was so absolutely gorgeous that you couldn't have asked for better...well, maybe a little less wind, but other than that...perfect.

We were grateful that we chose to have Thanksgiving dinner on the Sunday, that meant that we had a semi relaxing day for Monday....perfect.
We were grateful that when we figured out the timing for cooking the turkey that we realized that we needed to stay home from, that wasn't the grateful part, but....after we got the bird in the oven, we were able to sit out on the deck, enjoying a cup of tea, relaxing and just chatting about a myriad of things.....a perfect moment in a day that became wonderfully noisy when all the grandchildren arrived.....

We did miss Paul, who was away receiving and taking more training with the Canadian Army, but our new daughter in law Sara felt comfortable enough to join us and I was so pleased...guess she's gotten used all of us! :-)

As a mother, this was probably not what you would expect me to say....but I was glad that the remaining two absent children were unable to attend....I know!.... Did you ever think those words would come out of my mouth.....have you ever had people that just carried too much drama with them and make everyone around them just feel on edge? Well, these two kids are like they chose not to come I will admit to feeling relief.

Don and I were very pleased to get to know this little one a tiny bit better....

She's our youngest grand daughter....a few times she looked at Don and I with that look of 'I'm not so sure who these people are...where's mommy or daddy' look....but we did get some big smiles, and cuddles.

So, all in all, it was a lovely Thanksgiving.....soooo much to be grateful glad that we could all get together before the snow starts to fly and travelling becomes difficult for eldest son and his family who,we jokingly say , live in the northern tundra.....

So, now we just have to get through the birth of our newest grandson, Malachi.....he's due to be delivered on the 16th of November....have absolutely no idea how that will all end .....I just pray that it will be the right decision for this wee babe and for his life....
( it's unclear to all of us if our daughter Emma is going to be able to handle being a new mom, the decision is not in our hands and we don't have any control over the's all a big question mark for everyone)

.....and then on to Christmas! ......and that's a whole new set of problems.....but....lets just dwell on our amazing Thanksgiving and all the goodness from the enjoyable time we had.

Yes, let's!

~ Marie