It's Been Awhile......

Since I have posted anything....life has been unbelievingly exhausting the last few weeks.....but let me share with you something so beautiful, so wonderful.....it just brightens your whole day and makes you forget all the yuckies that you encounter just too many times in one day.....this is Samuel's very first genuine smile....


Isn't it wonderful?.....Doesn't it just make you smile yourself?

Those are the special moments that you just have to hold onto....when the world around you is just crashing...and no one has any answers....you just have to look at little Samuel and just breathe....

Some other things...our eldest daughter and her husband have sold their house and hopefully in the next few weeks they'll be able the break ground on their new house!

Number two....the quilting group at our church, a group that I'm proud to say I am part of....we held a fundraiser ..a fundraiser to help our grandson get enough money to help pay for some very special therapy that will hopefully help with his speech therapy...we raised just over $5000!!!

Number three...my grandson, the same one featured in the last paragraph has made a video for a Kraft peanut butter contest. The winner wins $10,000!!!! If they had won my daughter had wanted to use the winnings to help her son (my grandson) to get the therapy he needs...but since our fundraiser was able to do that and my grandson has enough for his special therapy, my daughter decided that another little girl named Esme....who really needs some very expensive therapy for autism could really benefit from having this prize money to pay for her therapy...it costs a lot of money but it's really good...I think it's thru the Sonrise Foundation....anyways, you can go on the website and vote for my grandson's video...it's called Nightraider.....please do that...you can vote everyday...please help Esme to get her special therapy.....the link is www.kraftpeanutbutter.com/en/contest/gallery/107/
...."please vote EVERYDAY..".we need Jairus' video...Nightraider to win...it only takes a few moments each day...and even if you have multiple computers, iPad or blackberry/iPhone...you can vote several times by going on each electronic...please help a little girl with autism...she's also legally blind and suffers from seizures.


Number four...daughter Maya got a job...up here in Canada there is a well known donut coffee shop called Tim Horton's...she got a job there...she has her very first shift tomorrow! This mama is very happy about it all!

These good things are the things to try and focus on...they kind of help when you think about the frustrating battles with Emma....

...the fact that she comes home smelling high and of cigarettes...
...the fact that she starts a co-op job from school but only shows up to it 2 out of 6 days....they let her go
....the fact that she went to school one morning and we didn't see her til the next morning...at school...when I went to talk to her...to see if she was still alive....
....the fact that I had to finally say to her that we were done...that her dad and I couldn't do this anymore....(either can her sisters and brother who are still at home)
....the fact that I told her that if she wanted to obey the rules of the house that she could come home
....the fact that after we finally thot we were done, we really weren't...when the police call you in the middle of the night to ask if they can bring her home...

....the fact that she's still coming home after curfew but is now telling us lie after lie to try and convince us that she had a legitimate reason for being late...

......the fact that we've been parents for 37 years and we've heard all the lies and we believe none of them

....the fact that one Saturday night..when we weren't wondering about Emma that we get a call...our son who is an alcoholic..got in a fight and was at the hospital with is face slashed....another midnight run to the hospital....


So......scroll back up to the top..take a good long look at that smile...isn't that the most wonderful smile you've ever seen....




Please vote for Nightraider.....every day...please....help Esme....you don't have to give money...just a click...everyday til the contest is done...please.