It's Been Awhile......

Since I have posted anything....life has been unbelievingly exhausting the last few weeks.....but let me share with you something so beautiful, so wonderful.....it just brightens your whole day and makes you forget all the yuckies that you encounter just too many times in one day.....this is Samuel's very first genuine smile....


Isn't it wonderful?.....Doesn't it just make you smile yourself?

Those are the special moments that you just have to hold onto....when the world around you is just crashing...and no one has any answers....you just have to look at little Samuel and just breathe....

Some other things...our eldest daughter and her husband have sold their house and hopefully in the next few weeks they'll be able the break ground on their new house!

Number two....the quilting group at our church, a group that I'm proud to say I am part of....we held a fundraiser ..a fundraiser to help our grandson get enough money to help pay for some very special therapy that will hopefully help with his speech therapy...we raised just over $5000!!!

Number three...my grandson, the same one featured in the last paragraph has made a video for a Kraft peanut butter contest. The winner wins $10,000!!!! If they had won my daughter had wanted to use the winnings to help her son (my grandson) to get the therapy he needs...but since our fundraiser was able to do that and my grandson has enough for his special therapy, my daughter decided that another little girl named Esme....who really needs some very expensive therapy for autism could really benefit from having this prize money to pay for her therapy...it costs a lot of money but it's really good...I think it's thru the Sonrise Foundation....anyways, you can go on the website and vote for my grandson's video...it's called Nightraider.....please do that...you can vote everyday...please help Esme to get her special therapy.....the link is www.kraftpeanutbutter.com/en/contest/gallery/107/
...."please vote EVERYDAY..".we need Jairus' video...Nightraider to win...it only takes a few moments each day...and even if you have multiple computers, iPad or blackberry/iPhone...you can vote several times by going on each electronic...please help a little girl with autism...she's also legally blind and suffers from seizures.


Number four...daughter Maya got a job...up here in Canada there is a well known donut coffee shop called Tim Horton's...she got a job there...she has her very first shift tomorrow! This mama is very happy about it all!

These good things are the things to try and focus on...they kind of help when you think about the frustrating battles with Emma....

...the fact that she comes home smelling high and of cigarettes...
...the fact that she starts a co-op job from school but only shows up to it 2 out of 6 days....they let her go
....the fact that she went to school one morning and we didn't see her til the next morning...at school...when I went to talk to her...to see if she was still alive....
....the fact that I had to finally say to her that we were done...that her dad and I couldn't do this anymore....(either can her sisters and brother who are still at home)
....the fact that I told her that if she wanted to obey the rules of the house that she could come home
....the fact that after we finally thot we were done, we really weren't...when the police call you in the middle of the night to ask if they can bring her home...

....the fact that she's still coming home after curfew but is now telling us lie after lie to try and convince us that she had a legitimate reason for being late...

......the fact that we've been parents for 37 years and we've heard all the lies and we believe none of them

....the fact that one Saturday night..when we weren't wondering about Emma that we get a call...our son who is an alcoholic..got in a fight and was at the hospital with is face slashed....another midnight run to the hospital....


So......scroll back up to the top..take a good long look at that smile...isn't that the most wonderful smile you've ever seen....




Please vote for Nightraider.....every day...please....help Esme....you don't have to give money...just a click...everyday til the contest is done...please.

....and so it goes on.....

Good Morning Company Girls!

So...it's been an interesting week this first week back at school.....can I leave home now? Oh, the drama.....

Last weekend was unbelievable....a roller coaster...well, maybe more like a drop tower of emotions...in a nut shell....on friday night it was confirmed that Emma indeed has been going out her bedroom window after hubby and I go to bed quite regularly....(I actually waited in her room for her to come back....from 2-3:15am).... Then, after we talked to her about it and then sent her to bed she took an overdose of megan's ADHD medication....rushed her to the hospital...spent the next 15 hours there while they neutralized the meds and had her see social workers and psychiatrists......came home and the next day hubby and I had to head up north to bring Maya home from her summer camp job....spent a lovely overnite in a hotel....went on the next day ..picked up Maya...then went onto Parry Sound to see our youngest grandkids and their parents....poor parents....wee Samuel has developed colic.....parents are already soooo sleep deprived that they are having difficulty functioning......oh, I remember those days so well...the nightmare that never seems to end..( now we just have the teen version)....the fun just keeps coming people!

Tuesday, school started...the coldest back to school day I think I've ever experience.....it's like over night, summer left!

Emma continued on her merry path.....coming home after curfew two nights in a row, going to a store and stealing some clothes ( she keeps doing this...one day I hope someone catches her). Constantly lying, Threatening to either kill herself or move out....

Maya had been giving us a hard time....she needs to get a job,....so far, she hasn't made any attempts, spending all day long watching movies and tv shows on YouTube....we keep telling her she is an adult now but she's resisting....I guess her teen years are a more comfortable place to be right now..so that's a battle we don't need....

Megan and Ben are back in the swing of things in their special needs classroom...this is the last for Ben...he should graduate next June...special needs kids can stay in school til their 21....which he'll be next march.....Emma should also graduate since she only needs the credits from this semester to graduate....this is her second year at grade 12, which isn't unusual in Ontario....a good amount of kids do it in two years...makes you wonder why they thot it was such brilliant idea to do away with grade 13!

Anyways, today I must drive to my chiropractor and pick up some digestive pills...yes, I know what you are thinking....it's not a wonder that this old woman needs help with her digestion!

Then come home and this afternoon pick up two grand girlies from an art class cause their mama is tied up at a teacher's meeting to bring teacher up to speed about how our oldest grandson functions.....Jairus is non verbal and delayed by a few years and once again the school and school board have cut his education assistance even more...now it's one third day, every other day...and they're insisting he takes French....French!! The poor guy is having a hard enough time with English! So, I'll get my grand girls, come home and make supper for 8 people...son Paul is going back to the army base after his summer leave and him and his girl Sara, will be here for supper. Than the kids have been yammering about going to youth group tonight...not real sure if they'll get there or not...all depends if hubby and I can find the energy after the week we've had...and so life in this household as it is, moves on.....leave you with a couple of pictures....sweet Samuel and the kids first day back to school pic...good grief...just thot...next September it should just be Megan in the pic.....yes!...things are moving along aren't they?

Have a good one ladies!





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The Last Week of Summer

Good Morning Company Girls!

Ah yes....I'm very well aware that summer doesn't officially end for a couple of more weeks...but...I'm still a mom of kids going back to school this Tuesday and to this mom, summer is done this weekend....I've often wondered when I don't have kids going 'back to school' whether I'll finally be able to change my thinking..I don't know ...it has been over 30 years of sending kids 'back to school'...time will tell I guess.

I'm looking forward to getting back into the routine again...of having my days to myself...except for the never-ending appointments with the kids.....it will be nice to have the kids actually doing something with their days instead of staring, open mouthed at the television!

Maya comes back home on Monday! In the last year she's been home two months....I think there will be some adjustments to be made...on all our parts...I spent all day last saturday getting her room ready....Maya is a hoarder...that really is an ugly name isn't it? Let's say that she just likes to keep things....everything.....I was ruthless and I really hope she doesn't get upset with me....maybe she won't notice the tag from a pair of work gloves...old candy canes....valentine cards...
cards of all sorts....running shoes that were worn to death....a plethora of unmatched socks with gigantic holes in them....school reports that she handed in 3-4 years ago....and the list goes on....and she has the smallest room in the house...about 8 x 9......so, her room is definitely cleaner than when she left....someone said I should take a picture cause when she returns, with all her stuff it probably won't look like that again! I hope..that it will be good to have her home....she really is a pretty good kid...with a smile that lights up her whole face....we'll see how next week goes.

The grandkids are suppose to be coming and staying overnite tonight....their mom and dad have to travel to a city a couple of hours away first thing in the morning so, they will stay with us...it's actually a pretty good trade cause hubby had some Marriott hotel points saved up so instead of spending Monday going up north to get Maya and coming back on the same day....we plan on leaving on Sunday, going to a town not too far away from Maya...staying the night...going to pick her up on Monday...then travel to Parry Sound,..another hour away...Maya hasn't seen new little Samuel yet...and she's dying to...Maya loves the babies....then....we'll make the 3 hour trek back home....that will be much, much longer since it's the end of the holiday weekend and EVERYONE will be coming down from up north....it's safe to say that it will most definitely take longer than the three hours! All this to say.....daughter and family will stay at our house Sunday night...to keep an eye on our teens and dogs in a trade off to us looking after their kids tonight and tomorrow....sounds good, right?

That's about all for now.....Emma was up to her usual tricks this week...but you really don't want to hear about that..suffice to say..if your a praying person that we could really use some!

Take care and have a lovely long weekend!


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